A very special X-mas for me

Mood: loved
Listening to: Melanie Thornton - Wonderful Dream
Weather: snowy
Drinking: champagne
Eating: dessert

First of all: I want to wish a merry Christmas to all of you!
Hope you'll get not too much presents, but the right ones! ;-)

Well, I wanted to tell you about last night...but just a short impression, I think! ;-)

The flavor of cinnamon filled the room and the calm light of about two dozen candles let the living room appear in a warm and peaceful ambience.
Eric and I were sitting on the ground, next to the small christmas tree we bought two days ago. It was draped with red and silver christmas balls and lights.
We had suppered and were really full (we had fondue with beef, poultry and pork, with different kind of dips and for dessert we had a kind of yoghurt-creme with fruits, it was just great!)
Sitting there my head on his shoulder, listening to a christmas cd, i thought that I#d never had a better christmas before.

I was feeling so happy like i'd never been since years, even before I lost both of my parent, I couldn't imagine to feel so much peace around.
I stood up and went to the bedroom.
"Stay where you are!" I called from there to Eric.
I opened the wardrobe and found what I was looking for: Under a pack of pullovers I'd hidden a small red envelope. My present for Eric! (no, not only the envelope! of course there was something IN it!)
I went back and sat down again.

"Merry Christmas!" I whispered in his ear and handed him the envelope.
He looked at me with eyes wide open.
"Thank you..."
He opened the envelope so carefully as if he could break it's content.
Two tickets fell into his hands.
"A flight to Germany next year, one week in Cologne, including a musical visit!" I smiled at him.
"but...how...?" He was really speechless and so cute!
"Don't know, remembered that you always wanted to visit Germany once, and so I thought that might be the right present for you!" I grinned.
"Oooooh, thank you, Hon'!" He embraced me and I fell to the ground.
"hey, hey, be carefull!" I smiled and gave him a soft kiss.
"I am always!" he smiled and winked.
"So...?" I just asked and grinned again.
"Yeeeeeees!" He stood up again. "Now it's time for your present, I think!"

No, I don't tell you what he gave to me, I think he'll do it soon! *hehe*
But I really liked it and I enjoyed the evening with him...

1 wedding and my funeral - Part 2

Mood: exhausted
Listening to: Lazlo Bane - I'm no superman
Drinking: coffee, coffee, coffee!
Eating: Whatever I can find
Weather: No idea...

Okay, first off all: My head is killing me!
Got the strange idea yesterday to drink some vodka-orange...well alcohol and antibiotics are a very bad combination and after the, i think, sixth one i was absolutely drunk!
so I don't feel that good today...
But I wanted to go on writing about the marriage..

Well, I could see that Foreman became more and more drunk, and I worried a bit about him.
But Allison was still there and she didn't seem to want to go away.
"You are outside since more than half an hour! Are you going to talk to me again somewhen today?" she asked.
Ich tried not to roll my eyes. 'Yes: It's over...' I thought.
"Can we please go inside again!? I'm here with my boyfriend and I want everybody to see that!" She said, caught my sleeve and pulled me inside again.
I could just give a helpless glance to the others, bevor I saw myself standing on the dancefloor with Allison.
"Darling, please, dance with me!" she smiled and I just nodded. Well, If I had to...

After two dances, I told her that I had to go to the toilet and vanished behind the men's room door.
I took a deep breath. My good, this was all so...nerve-wrecking!
I tried to stay here as long as I could, but it would be obtrusive to stay on the toilet for half an hour.
So I decided to leave the bathroom again and went back to the others, which were still ouside on the balcony.

"There you are!" Allison smiled when I stepped outside.
Damn, why was she here, too? I tried to smile back.
"Have you been all the time on the toilet?" she asked.
"No, I wanted to have a new drink, but I couldn't find a waitress." I said and glanced over to Eric.
"Robert, you behave so different, today! What's going on? Sometimes I ask which whom you are together! With your guys here or with me!" She pouted.
"He has a relationship with you, as we all know!" Eric said angrily.
I caught his eyes and saw his pain and jealousy inside.
"Why are you that bitchy now?" she asked him.
"Why are you that bitchy the whole time?" Eric asked in return.
"Robert, could you please tell your best friend not to speak to me in that kind of way!?" Allison said to me.
I rolled my eyes. And I hate it, to be called Robert!
"Please, can you both stop argueing?" I just said.

Wilson went back into the restaurant and was caught by Cuddy who wanted to dance with him.
I'm not a very good dancer, I can do some stepps, and thats all, but Wilson was really good.
"He really can do it!" House said and stopped the fight between Cam and Eric.
"Compared to Chase, yes!" Allison said and glanced at me.
"Ehm...I come back later!" I said.
I needed a walk.

So I left the restaurant to the front door and made a few stepps. I don't know how long I've been there, I made some tours around the restaurant, when I finally saw two persons climbing outside a window. It must have been the mens room window.
I grinned, when I recognized House and Wilson.
It was funny to see House climbing!
I went to them and just said: "Caught!"
"Feck!" House said!
"Chase!" Wilson looked at me.
"Don't want to know why you are both climbing outside the men's room window, but I can imagen!" I grinned.
"okay, okay, now let's go back to the party!" House said. "And then, the patient..." he started, pretending to ralk about a case he had.
"Could it be Lupus?" I grinned.
"No, it's Never Lupus!" House answered
I could hear Allisons scream: "Chase! Where have you been!"
"Ehm..had a walk...with House and Wilson!" I said and pointed to them. "We had a discussion about a case."
"Was it Lupus?" she asked.
"No, it was not LUPUS!!!" House said angrily.
Eric and I smiled at each other.

Some minutes later, Allison took a look at her watch. "Darling, maybe we should leave soon, I'm a bit tired!"
I nodded. that would mean that is was time to tell her the truth.
House said suddenly: "Chase, remember, ypu promised to drive Foreman home!"
"Ah, yes!" I said an glanced at Eric.
"Why can't he call a cap?" Allison asked.
"Allison..." I started. I was searching for the right words, but I think there aren't any right words to say in such a situation. "I won't drive home with you..." I closed my eyes and took a deep breath.
"What do mean?" she asked.
"he will drive Foreman home!" said House.
"And I'll stay with him!" I sighed.
"Please WHAT? Why that?" she screamed.
"Because Foreman and I...are... a couple. Since yesterday's night."
I could hear Allison's glas bursting on the ground.
She shook her head: "No...No that isn't true!"
"Cameron..." Eric started, but Allison interrupt him: "WHAT, ERIC???"
She made a step forwards to Eric. "You, you take away my boyfriend? And now I should listen to you? Never!"
"Cameron, I love him. And he loves me!" Eric said calmly.
"no, he doesn't!" she yelled and suddenly she raised her hand and hit him in his face.
I was shocked. What the heck was going on here? Eveyrthing was outta control!
"Cameron!" I yelled and grabbed her hand before she could hit Eric once more.
"You!" She stared at me "I'll come to you later!" She was in so much anger, I've never seen here like this before.

"Gawd, she's so bitchy...no wonder her boyfriend became gay." House whispered to Wilson.
"What???" Allison straed at House. If views could kill...I guess there'd been no less than four corpses on the balcony.
"It wasn't me who made Chase gay! It was Foreman, it's all his fault!" she yelled. "And Chase isn't gay!"
"Cameron" said Eric calmly. "I'm really sorry...but I love Chase!"
"That's what i do, you fucking asshole!"
Woha! was that really Allison? I was shocked about what was going on here.
"No, Eric Foreman, not Fucking Asshole!" I corrected her.

"Maybe we should discuss that somewhere els, everybody is already watching!" Wilson said and looked inside the restaurant where the most of the other guests were already lokking what was going on outside.
"I don't give a shit about what the other people think! DR ERIC FOREMAN, WORKING IN THE PPTH IS FALLEN IN LOVE WITH MY BOYFRIEND AND PROBABLY SLEPT WITH HIM ALREADY...!" she screamed as loud as she could.
"CAMERON!" we all four yelled at her.
"I didn't..I mean... we haven't slept with each other yet!" Eric tried to explain her, but she wasn't listening.
I could only hide my face in my hands...Gaaaawwwd....I thought.
House grinned a bit and Allison noticed that: "What?"
"Nothin'" he said.
"That's all your fault! You started it! And now Foreman and Chase want to try this..this thing, too!" she was still yelling in anger.
"First, stop yelling!" House said to her "This is our wedding and I don't want it to be destroyed by you!"
"I scream whenever I want!" she yelled at him.
"No! I never punched a woman, but you nearly reached the point when I would do it!" House said angrily.
Allison raised her hand again..and punched Eric in his stomach.
"Honey!" I rushed to Eric.
Wilson grabbed Allison. "Calm down!" he yelled.
"Let me be!" she screamed.
"Stop yelling!" said House and stared at her.
She breathed heavily. "Eric...I trusted you! And I consoled you when you lovelearned because of Chase! And then you'll take the first chance to take him away from me!"
"Cameron, no one does things like that on purpose!" House said. "You don't believe that Foreman just said: Ha, now I make Chase love me!"
"Who knows what comes to the mind of our super-neurologist!" she screamed.
"That's silly, Cameron!" Wilson interjected.
"But why is he doing this to me?"
"Allison, he didn't do anything to do, he just loves me!" I tried to talk to her, but she wasn't listening at all.
"Robert, you're just...confused!" she looked at me.
"No, Allison, I'm sorry, I love him! I'm so sorry for that date we had...it was as precipitous as our relationship!"
"Better than three precipitous marriages." Said House and smiled to Wilson. He grinned.
"i think I just wanted to disavow it, Allison! But now I can't anymore, I'm sorry!" I sighed again.
Allison shook her head: "This will have a repercussion!"
"What...what do you mean?"
"I do nothing...but i think monday at the PPTH everybody will know about you...including Miss Granger! You still have to go to this conversational therapy with her, right?"
"They just say that we could be a danger to each other! One more agrument and we'll be sacked on the spot!"
"I think Ginger will react in a very positive way, that she looses Dr Foreman on you of all people!" she smiled sneaky.
"Cameron! I know who'll be sacked when there are any rumors going around!" House said angrily.
"Everybody knows she has a crush on Foreman! And she hates Chase more than anybody else!"
"Who doesn't?" he just replied.
Okay, thank you House, that was what I needed above all that.

I felt more than uncomfortable and just wanted to run away.
Just wanted to be with Eric on a silent and calm place, where nobody would disturb us! (No, not do what YOU might think now!!!)
Eric sighed: "I'll talk to Ginger!"
"Okay!" Think of me when she cuts your eggs off!" Allsion said, turned around and entered the restaurant.

"It's over..." Eric said.
"Don't you have a TV at home?" House yelled at the staring crowd.
"There's a lot to see tonight..." I tried to smile, but it didn't work that well.
"I think we'll go home now!" said Wilson.
I just nodded and glanced to Eric.
He nodded, too.
"Thank's for the invitation. I think I'll never forget this evening!" I said and shook House's and Wilson's hands.
Eric and I went to my car.
"Chase...?" he said.
I turned around.
"I love you!" he said and gave me a shy kiss.
"love you, too!" I replied and smiled...



Well, that was my evening at the wedding, don't know if House and Wilson want to tell you more about it!
And for all of you who might think they know what Eric and I did after: No, we DIDN'T!!!

1 wedding and my funeral - Part 1

Mood: nervous
Listening to: John cale - Hallelujah
Drinking: coffee
Eating: crisps
Weather: cloudy

Before I start writing about what happened on the wedding of House and Wilson, I wanted to tell you:
I'm back home! (since Saturday evening)
I'm feeling more or less okay, taking antibiotics against the encephalitis I had.
I still ahve to stay at home till Wednesday, to be sure, that I don't pass anyone else. God knows why I haven't Eric until now.
What happened later on that saturday after I was allowed to leave the hospital, I'll write later (who wants to get a little idea, take a look at my deviantArt!)
Now let's write abot last weeks saturday...


I put on my smoking and tried to avoid Allisons view. I felt shitty that I didn't told her yet what had happened the last night.
When she had asked me why I wasn't at home in the morning when she woke up, I just told her that I needed a midnight walk and met House, Wilson and Foreman outside.
After hours and hours of conversations, we decided to change to Erics place, because it became too cold to stay outside any longer! And that I finally fell asleep there...
More or less, that was the truth! I just let out some (okay, I must admit very important) details...

"Hey, how do you think do I look like?" Allison asked when she left the bathroom. She wore a really nice dress, I must admit, but after all i thought, that it didn't had the effect on me she might had wished for.
"Yeas, you're looking good!" I just said and tried to bound my bow tie.
"Thank you..."
Did she notice that there was something different on my mind? Or someone...!?
"Should I help you?" she asked when she saw me in front of the mirror, fighting with that bow tie.
"No thanks, I think I get this!" I said and finished the fight successfully.
"Are you ready?" she asked some minutes later when she had put on her shoes and jacket.
I just nodded, took my keys and my cell left the appartement.

"You're so quiet since the morning" Allison said during our way to the restaurant.
"hmhm..." I just mutteredand pretended to concentrate on the street.
"What's going on with you?" she asked.
"Nothin'. Please, I'm trying to drive!"
Allison folds her arms and looked straight on the street.

I sighed.
It was strange. I'd been happy with her for some time.
I really thought she was the one.
But time after time I realized, that there was something missing, something I couldn't explain.
I started to brood over my relationship, but since I couldn't explain what was that something or someone, that strange feeling of missing ... i tried to go on with my realtionship pretending to be happy.
Now I know that I was missing a special someone...

10 Minutes later, we arrived at the restaurant.
I parked the car and left it.
My stomach felt as if I'd had three rollercoaster rides with ten loopings each.
I glanced over the other cars and noticed a very familiar one, not far away from mine.
"Eric..." I thought.
I felt someone touching my hand. I smiled and turned around, but it was only Allison staring at me.
I tried to go on smiling, but somehow my face muscles seemed to be frozen.
Holding hands, we entered the restauant.

The first few hours went over and we were sitting on our places around the table.
Lunch was over and music was played, some couples danced to the sound of the band.
I sighted again.
During the meal Eric and I were searching each others eyes again and again.
Allison didn't seem to notice it.
I finally saw my chance, when House, Wilson and Eric stepped outside on the balcony.

"Excuse me a moment, please!" I said and stood up.
I followed the three men and stepped on the balcony, too.
"Hey Chase!" Eric smiled and gave me a quick kiss, after he made sure that none of the other guests was watching.
"Hey Eric!" I smiled in return.
House and Wilson were holding hands and drank champagne.
"Want some?" james asked and raised his glas.
Eric nodded: "Yes, I think, I'll need it today."
I grinned and nodded too: "One will be okay, I think, have to drive later, but till then there's a lot of time"
Wilson gave House a kiss on his cheeks and stepped inside again to get some more champagne.

"Gawd this evening is going to kill me!" I said and made a grimace.
"This evening or Allison?" asked Eric with a smile and he took my hand.
"Both!" I sighed and leaned against Erics shoulder.
"Did she say something?" he asked me.
I shook my head: "No. I think she didn't even notice anything! Lucky for us!" I sighed again.
Eric put his arm around me and gave me a hug.
"Come on, Hon', everything will be fine!"
"Yeas, after we were killed by my soon-ex-girlfriend!" I nodded.

Wilson came back on the balcony, carrying four glasses of champagn.
"Here they are!" he said and handed each of us one glas.
Eric took his arm off of me and took his glas. That was a perfect timing cause right at that moment Allison stepped outside to join us on the balcony.
"here you are!" she smiled.
"Yeas, here I am..." I said and tried to catch Erics eyes.
"I thought I wa shere with my boyfriend, but somehow he doesn't seem to want to spend his time with me!" she said a bit angry.
She also tried to be a bit sarcastic...but sorry, she really isn't!

Eric raised his glas and just said: "Cheers!" to help me not to answer that last sentence.
House, Wilson and I raised our glasses, too: "Cheers!"
Eric drank his whole glas within one draft.
"Eric, you are drinking alcohol?" Allison asked.
"Yes, I think I need it this evening." he said again and smiled. "Wohaa, that stuff works...!" he muttered.
"If you drink it all at once, of course!" She answered.
"That's my business!" he said a bit angry.
I could see his cheeks turning a bit red, he was already tipsy...

Later more, have to....ehm...stop now!

Meeting in the snow - and a happy end!

Mood: confused
Listening to: nothin'
Eating: I'm not hungry...
Drinking: water
Weather: still no idea


While i'm in hospital, I have the time to go on writing about friday!
So, where did I stop...?
Ah, well....


"Did you ever love me, Chase?"
I stared at the ground, avoid to meet Erics eyes.
"Chase?" "hmhm..."
"I won't break your neck if you say no!" He grabbed my shoulder. "BUT..." He had something in his eyes that made clear that he was absolutely serious: "I want to hear the truth! Please don't tell me any lies!"
I nodded slowly.

I tried to make an answer, but my mouth was too dry, my throat seemed as if it doens't want to make any noise.
I croaked something.
"Did you?" asked Eric again.
Finally I managed to create a single sound...
"....y...yes..."
"But..." Eric seemed to be a bit shocked "But why did you date Cameron after all?"
"I...I don't know...!"
"You even started a relationship with her on the same evening!" He stared at me.
"Everything was so...so confusing..." I didn't know what to say anymore.
"That was the reason why I was so angry!" he screamed.

Suddenly we heard a scream yelling all over the forest: "YEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAASSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
"What the heck?" Eric looked around and listened.
"Hm? What...?" I stared at him and tried to listen in the night, too, but now there was silence.
"Nothing, I thought I heared House..." Eric said.
I shrugged my shoulders and lokked back on the ground again.

"So what are we going to do, DownUnderHairWonderBoy?" Eric asked me.
"This name will always follow me, won't it?" I laught.
"Definetly!" smiled Eric.
I smiled, but then I tried to become serious again.

"Eric, ...I...I am so sorry..." I whispered.
Eric took a deep breath: "Chase..." He was searching for the right words to say.
"Would you... Do you want to..."
"What...?" I made a step forwards to him.
"would you like.....ehm....together...with me.....!?"
I looked into his eyes and nodded very, very slowly.
"Does that mean yes? DOES THAT MEAN YES???" Eric screamed.
I nodded again.
He jumped forward and wraped his arms around my neck.
We smiled at each other and Eric finally said: "I love you!"
We closed our eyes and I could feel his lips softly touching mine...

We smiled again at each other, when we stopped kissing.
Suddenly, Eric was terrified.
"Oh gawd, the wedding's tomorrow!" he realised.
"Yeas, right." I took a look at the watch and corrected: "Today..."
"How can I explain this here to Cameron?" Eric asked me.
"Good question!" I nodded "Think we should try to explain this to her together! If we try to do it alone, seh'll kill us!"
"That's gonna be alot of fun..." Eric said.
"I mean...can we do this to house and Wilson? I mean it's their wedding and we are going to ruin the evening with my fucking breakup with Cameron!" I went a few steps to the next tree and kicked against the bole: "I think we'll have to wait till saturday evening when the party's over..."
"Or we never start something that..." I interrupted Eric, gave him a kiss and said: "Don't even think about it!"
He kissed me back and smiled: "Wanna go home?"
I nodded and he took my hand.

It was a strange feeling, I must admit. But somehow I knew it was "right".
House and Wilson were already gone, they packed their stuff together and made their way back.
Eric and I went to my car. Before I could open it, Eric stopped.
"Wait a sec!" He said and suqted in the snow. He painted some lines in the snow and after he stood up again, he smiled.
I went back to him, to see what he had drawn.
It was a huge heart and written in it was "C+E". "Had to be!" he said and smilet at me.
I grinned back and gave him another kiss.
"What a pity that it will only last till next snowfall..." I said and opened the car...

It's just a cold....!?

Mood: sick
Listening to: the sound of the machines
Eating: nothin'....
Drinking: water (don't get any coffee at the moment!)
Weather: the blinds are closed, don't know

Okay, before I go on writing about last friday, I wanted to tell you something ongoing!

Eric and I had a great evening yesterday, even though I had a cold, I felt very well with him.
But later something changed, my cough got worse, and started to shiver, and my head and throat ached like hell.
I moved into my bed and wanted to sleep, but suddenly I got dizzy and I saw everything twice...
Eric wanted to call 911 to sent me to the PPTH, but I shook my head: "I'm fine...."
Another fit of coughing tossed me... I really felt shitty...

"Come on, I help you to put on your cloth and then I'll call 911!" said Eric and helped me to stand up.
I was so damn weak, I couldn't bearely move.
He called 911 and came back in the sleeping room. "You have double visions, don't you?" he asked.
"No, I'm okay..." I lied. But the evening was spoiled already...great!
"Hey; I can see it in your eyes!" He sat down in front of me and took my hand. "Come on, I called the ambulance, they'll be here in a few mintes."
He embraced me with his arms, to stop me shivering, but the ague was too strong.

When my door bell rang, Eric jumped up.
I tried to stand up... and noticed that I couldn't.
"What the heck...?"
Whatever I tried, I couldn't move my legs!
Eric came back and the paramedics followed him.
I looked at him in fear... "Eric....I can't move...."
He looked at me and just nodded, he didn't know what to say.

The paramedics got a strechter and carried me out of my apartement.
"Eric...." I whispered "please...don't leave me alone..."
"I won't leave you alone, I promise!" he said and took my hand when we entered the ambulance vehicle.
I didn't care about the sideglances one of the paramedics gave us, I just felt so tired.... and then a heavy darkness paralyzed me....


The next thing I remember is waking up here in the PPTH...
I'm happy, Eric brought me my lap, otherwise I wouldn't be able to write, so it's not that boring...

Meeting in the snow - Part 3

Mood: anxious
Listening to: Collin Hay - Overkill
Drinking: Coffee
Eating: nothing (but I'm hungry as always)
Weather: still snowing

Eric went in front of me until we reached a small lake. The water was nearly complete frozen, only in the middle of it left a bit water that wasn't covered with ice.
The stars reflected in the cat ice and let the screnery appear like pure magic.

Eric stood there, his face showed in the direction of the lake. Slowly he turned aroun.
"Chase..." he started.
"Yeas...?" I asked and wondered what would happened next.
"I love you!"
I didn't know what to say or do. I was paralised and could just stare at Eric. 'What? How can that be?'
Thoughts were running through my head, pictures appeared in my mind, pictures of what happened some weeks ago and I felt my mouth became totally dry.

"And I'm damn sure about that!" Eric stared back, directly into my eyes.
I tried to nodd, but somehow, my body didn't react like I weanted it to.

"You are... so... damn cute." he went on.
"Eric..."
"I love it that you always stay 45 minutes in the bathroom.
I love it how you're making coffee.
I love it, that you're always sitting on the kitchen table, even if the chair is right next to you!"
At that moment, I couldn't avoid a little smile.
I remembered the first time Eric saw me sitting on the table and his weird look when he noticed me there.
"I love the way you're lokking at me and when your eyes start sparkling then."
I glanced in his eyes and tried to smile a bit.
"The way you're doing it right now!"
I looked back on the ground. 'Damn idiot!' But I couldn't resist to look back at him, noticing that his eyes were fixing me.

"I even love the way you're chewing on every pen that you can find! And I love the smell of your hair when you used your strawberry shampoo..."
I nearly started laughing. Don't know why, but somehow most people notice something abou my using of pens or about my hair, but that Eric would do that,,,

"Eric, I...I...I just don't know what to say..."
"I even love it when you react bitchy when you are in a bad mood!" he went on without listening to the words I said.
I smiled again a bit.
"I just love everything abou you!" he took a deep breath.
"But on the other hand... I hear things
about you, I didn't even want to know...." he ended.

I stared at him. What did he say?
"What....what do you mean...?" I stammered.
"Is is...is it true that you...tried to kiss House and...and..." He stopped and his body was shaking as if he would try not to cry.
"What???" I was shocked!

Again, there came pictures up in my mind, House and I sitting there in this bar, I rember that fifth Mojito I had... and then a long period of nothing but darkness... the next thing I could remember was Eric arraving at the Hemingway's, making his way through the crowd over to House and me...

"No! No! I mean... I can't remeber anything like that! Really!"
Eric took a deep breath.
"Really, you have to believe me, please Eric!" I looked at him begging.
"You can't remember anything?" he finally asked.
"No..." I shook my head.
"Can you remeber US?" he asked and stabbed me with his eyes.
I nodded slowly.

It was weird, but from the moment, Eric joint us that evening, everything was clear in my mind. More than just clear....!

"So did you ever really love me, Chase?" Eric asked me...

Meeting in the snow - Part 2

Mood: still cold
Listening to: Depeche mode- enjoy the silence
Drinking: coffee
Eating: sandwiches
Weather: still snowing


While we were sitting there, House and Wilson kept cuddling the whole time and whispered to each other.
I got the strange feeling that they were talking about me.
I saked Foreman: "Do you know what they are talking...?"
He shook his head: "No."
"Seems to me like they are comprassing something."

Suddenly Wilson raised up and looked at Eric: "Foreman, wanna go for a walk?" He shrugged his shoulders and nodded.
"We'll be back soon!" said Wilson and kissed House once more. Than they left.

House and I left there all alone.
I looked above into the sky.
I felt a bit uncomfortable beening here alone with House and I couldn't avoid the feeling that he was observing me.

"What?" I finally asked.
"Nothing! What's going on with you? Don't loomk at me the way you're doing at the moment!" he answered angry.
"You are watching me!" I replied and felt the anger coming up.
"I'm just carefully!" He said and slipped a bit away from me.
"Why that? Don't be silly!"
"You exactly know what I mean!" Said House with a mixture of anger and fear in his voice.
"No, I don't know!" I really had no idea and still don't know...
House mumbled something into his beard and a heavy silence lay down over the glade.

After a few minutes I looked to the forest where Wilson and Eric had vanished.
"They take a lot of time, don't they?" I asked.
House mumbled again: "They are talking, that takes time!" He finally replied.
I nodded, but somehow I still worried about them.
"Is there some coffee left?" House asked.
I handled him the coffeepot.

Suddenly a loud scream yelled all over the forest:
"UUUUUAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
I jumped up and was on my feet. "Was that Eric?" I asked House and fixed the trees in front of us.
"Yes, but this was just our screaming therapy" he said and sipped on his refilled coffee cup.
I still worried and felt some uneasiness.
"Sit down!" House said angrily.
Without taking my eyes off the forest, I sat down again... on something warm and softish...

"Get off of me!" screamed House and pushed me away.
I jumped up. "I'm sorry!!" and sit down on my old place, again.
That was the moment when Eric and Wilson appeared again.

"Heh, Eric, how are you?" I asked. He looked terrible, as if he had cried.
"Can we talk?" he asked me and his voice was quaking.
I nodded slowly and went behind him back to the forest....

Meeting in the snow - Part 1

Mood: cold
Listening to: Collin Hay - Waiting for my real life to begin
Drinking: Coffee
Eating: Sandwiches
Weather: snowing


OKay, what happened last friday? I think that this is the most burning question for most of you, isn't it? Okay, I think I'm going to write about it now

Late at night, I had a more then restless feeling and wanted to go out for a walk.
Allison and I were already at Point Pleasant and shared a hotel room.
She was already asleep, when I raised up again.
I took a look at the watch: the red light on the display of the alarm-clock showed almost 2 o'clock.
I searched my clothes together and put on my jeans, my shirt and a warm sweater.
"Where the heck are my socks...?" I searched under the bed and finally foudn them there.
Allison was still sleeping. I believe only an earthquake could wake her up when she has fallen asleep once.
After putting on my boots, I took my coat and left the room.

Ouside the hotel I took a deep breath and enjoyed the cold air.
My breath built small clouds in the dark night.
The sky was clear and lots of stars had been seen.
Near the hotel was a small forest, the top of each tree covered with snow.

I mad emy way over there to the forest.
It had snowed some minutes ago, so my feet sank deep in to the fresh snow on the ground.

After I entered the forest, I suddenly noticed some voices.
I wondered who else would stay awake at this nighttime and went on.

Some meters in front of me was a grace.
When I approached , I finally recognized the voices I heard.
"good evening, Dr House and Dr Wilson!" I said ehen I reached the glade.
"Oh Chase!" House lokked up to me and didn't seem to be that happy to see me.
"Oh hi Eric!" I said, when I finally realised, that he was there, too.
"Hi Chase...!" he answered.
The three men were sitting in the snow on some sleeping bags.

"Ehat are you doing here, Chase?" Wilson asked.
"I needed a walk!" I said.
House and Wilson shared a sleeping bag and I think they were sitting in there cuddling.
House reached out his hand to take his red coffee cup and sipped on it.
"Wanna sit down?" asked Eric and pointed next to him. I nodded and sat down.
"Coffee?" Wilosn asked and I nodded again.

"Where is Cameron?" asked House and rised one if his eyebrows.
"Sleeping." I said and took my cup of coffee from Wilson.
I took a sip and felt the warm liquid running down my throat. From the inside of my stomache the warmth seemed to run through my whole body.

Wilson looked up into the sky and watched the stars. House put his arm around him and lokked up, too.



I think I'll write more later, have some things to do now!
And I know how hard it will be for some people to be patient till I write my next post! ;-)

Just a photo

Mood: giggly
Listening to: John Cale - Hallelujah
Drinking: tea (still no coffee here)
Eating: cookies
Weather: too dark to see

I just wanted to show you a picture that was taken yesterday, on the marriage of House and Wilson, it shows Foreman and me (who else?)

I think we look good in suits, don't we?

A short summary

Mood: happy
Listening to: The Smashing Pumpkins - Daphne Descends
weather: dark and snowy
drinking: coke (there is no coffee left)
Eating: chicken sandwiches

Okey, I think I don't need to intruduce myself, so I just start writing a short post about what happened in the last few weeks.

As you might have read on D House's and Dr Wilson's Blogs, we have new members of our team since a few weeks, Dr John Dorian and Dr Elliot Reid from The Sacred Herat Hospital, California, and Nurse Ginger Granger. They should help us with our lab-tests and so on.

Well, I have to say that they really do a quite good job, but let me say it that way: I have some...personal problems with Miss Granger here.

Let me say that our first meeting wasn't that happy! (It had something to do with her very...ehm...impressing front end...ehem) And she tried to strangle me with my stethoscope... for that moment I really can say that our (of course just professional) relationship is a bit difficult.

Well, after some upcoming happenings we have to visit some therapies about problems with working couples! (no, we are not together!!! God, If had to to spend more than ten minutes with her in the same room, I think I would kill her! Just as she tried with me)

I think it's gonna be a hard time during the therapy-lessons with her...

And then there was Cameron... yeas, we had a relationship...had? Yeas, we split up.
I just wanted to tell you... i will write about this later...

And yeas, I'm in love with another person...maybe you guess who? No, it's still not Ginger, it's not Dr Reid... you know this person and I know him for a long time, too... (I think it must be about three years, now).
Him? Yeas, exactly, it's a man. It's Foreman!

After some...ehm...experience during one of our evening with a lo's of alcohol, we thought that it was just a short episode in our life, just a "nice evening and we never try it again".
I mean, just kissing a guy isn't thwat worse, isn't it?

But at least, some things came up, we didn't expect and now... yeah, now we're actually quite happy!

BUt more about this later, I just wanted to write a short summary.
It's a bit longer now, but hey, who cares?